17/07/2015

Sometimes I think that me and my friend are too reckless in making decisions. But we don't really care, it makes the best memories, right? :) We decided that we will go to Poznan (big city in Poland, 2,5h from my town) by train, stay in my friend's brother's flat and walk around Poznan in the night #yolo #nightlife
It didn't start the best for us. Basically, in the last minute our plans changed and we missed the train, perfectoo. But luckily there was a bus which were driving to Poznan one hour later. So we payed twice more money and our trip began.
We left our stuff in the flat and go out. It's good that our other friend came with us because if she wasn't there we will definitely get lost... We spent whole time at The Old Town. It is beautiful! I have always liked old prewar streets and buildings. We were walking from bar to bar, from club to club and basicaly just had fun. I don't know how we did so many things in so little time.
One of the best part of trip like this is meeting new people. We met guy from Spain who is studying in Poland. I think that we spent more than hour talking to him and it was really cool experience, because we had to speak english and we don't have ability to speak with someone in this language everyday. I have to admit that he was really nice person! We came back to the flat at about 6am, so we ended up with no sleeping because we had to go out at 7 and go to the train station... The trip by train was terrible... We didn't have any place to sit, so we had to sat on the floor NEXT TO THE TOILET (AGAIN!). I was soooo tired and I couldn't fall asleep. Why? Because next to me was sitting a girl who was talking this whole bloody ride. She was saying the word 'generally' soo many times... really. I had even started counting it, having hope that this will help me fall asleep... it didn't :) When we were finally at home I think I spent most of the day sleeping. But it was worth it, soo bloody worth it. It's hard to describe what we did, because this post would be like two pages long, but it was amazing trip and experience which left incredible memories in my mind, and that's the most important thing :)

HAPPY PLACE

I think everyone has their own happy place. For me it's place where I can relax, think, consider some stuff and take rest of the people. It doesn't matter if it's your room, beach or bench under shopping center. It has to be your place, place where you like being. I have the pleasure of living in a small town with lakes, forests etc. so I have really big choice of places in nature. But I have one favourite. It's old beach by the lake but not many people go there because it's far from city center. I like sitting on the little bridge, staring at the trees and lake and just thinking. Especially when it's sunset and the sky is getting darker and darker. It's funny how many beautiful places we have at fingertips and we don't appreciate it. We are so accustomed to the view of our city that it doesn't impress us anymore. We really need to see better. But anyway...
My other "happy place" is a little village where I have my family. Unfortunately I have to spent 5 hours in the car to go there, so we don't see each other often... I think I like this place because I see how it makes other people happy. For example my father. I see how sad sometimes he is that he can't live there with his cousins, aunts and uncless. When we are there everyone is happy and that really makes me feel good. Especially I like to sit in a little bench outside the house where my great-gradmother used to sit and sang me songs when I was little. Agh, I hope that I'll go there this summer, fingers crossed.
Maybe it's strange but not only places with no people make me relax. I've always liked big towns that never sleeps, where you can see lot of people in any time of the day. Maybe it's because I live in this small town and sometimes in the center there is NOBODY and living in a big place become one of my dreams. I will never forget when I was in London... I sat at the Trafalgar Square in the evening and I was just looking at people. Looking how they were dressed, what style they had, if they were happy or not, what were they doing. I know it's a little psycho... But I don't know why it really makes me relaxed. Maybe because then I don't think about me?
It's sad that most of places which makes me happy are so far away from my home. But I hope that I will have a chance to go there again :)

And what about you? Do you have any "happy places"?

Trafalgar Square - unfortunately not my photo

1/07/2015 OPEN'ER FESTIVAL

Yes, 1st of July was definitely one of the best days of my life. I jumped in a train at 6:50am and I went to Gdynia. What for? To OPEN'ER FESTIVAL. I had so much complication with the preparation of this day, but once again I need to say "where there's a will there's a way"! The trip was very tiring, especally when you are reckless like me, don't have reservation and must spent your journey sitting on the floor next to the toilet... Don't recommend. So at station I met my friends and we went together to the festival with a free-bus. Agh, I just love festivals. The atmosphere is amazing. And basically I like visiting new places, far away from my home, where nobody know me and I can forget about all the problems and just run away from reality.

First concert I went to was band called Kodaline. They play really good music. I was mainly waiting for song high hopes and of course all I want. I think they are nice and funny guys, seeing them on stage was a pleasure.
Next was Asap Rocky, but I don't really like this kind of music so I spent concert sitting on the grass and just listening. But I have to admit that it was really good and he for sure made his fans happy.
And then... CHET FAKER. Agh, love that guy so much. I'm glad that I stood so close to the stage and could saw him well. The concert was really really good, but the only disadvantage was Tent-Stage. It would be so much better if he played on MainStage, because people were crazy and it was hard to survive in crowd with this heat.
Then on the Main Stage showed up headliner of the day- Drake. But once again, I don't like music like this, so I think that I haven't seen him even for a second ;_; I went with my friends to buy a beer, eat something and go to the disco.
And then the time has come, on the stage showed up... ALT J <3 I really love this band, being on their concert was just... amazing. I don't even have words to describe it. They gave beautiful show. It was so relaxing and brought me to another world for over an hour. When I heard Matilda I was so moved. But song which reminds me the most of the concert is dissolve me and moment when they start to do "ooo ooo ooo" (good explanation), agh beautiful. I could give everything to go on their concert again! :(
When Alt J finished we went to Tent Stage, because Die Antwoord were about to go on stage. Again, bad idea with the Tent Stage. But oh my god, whet even happened there. Everybody were dancing, screaming, jumping and it was just CRAZY!
After Die Antwoord everything was finished and I had to go on train again and go back home. I was soo tired, so I spent journey sleeping all the time.
It was such an amazing day... I'm thinking about going on whole open'er festival next year, because it is really great. Hope I will have money for that :( The best beginning of summer I could ever have :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLqlisJGwy4 2:25 ♥

BEING LOST

In my previous post I mentioned how rough my school year was, so I decided to write about something I was and I am still dealing with. It's feeling lost. When you're going to high school you should know what you want to do in the future, focus on lessons that will be useful to get into college and basically just know what you are doing there... I'm this kind of person who doesn't know what the hell she is going to do in the future. In addition, I think that everything is just... wrong? I feel like I'm not in the right place. And I mean school, town and EVERYTHING. I don't even know what I'm doing with my life right now. I'm so jealous of people who have real passion and know what they want to do. But sometimes I like to sit in my room and think about where I will end and what I will do. I know that 17 year old girl shouldn't care about stuff like this, but not knowing what future is going to bring and where I will end is just frightening. Why am I focus so much on it? From book "Looking for Alaska" I have remembered this quote:

Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. (...) You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.

It has stuck in my head for a long time. I thought it related to me in 100%. I tried to live in the present, catch every little moment of a day, but when I just had time to myself I was sitting and thinking about future. And now I'm thinking that maybe it has to be like that? I'm type of spontaneous person and I like to console myself that not knowing is good. I don't know where I will be next year, with who etc. And as I mentioned earlier it's frightening, but in some way it is exctiting too. So now I'm trying to don't think about it, live in the moment and enjoy it. Hope it will work. I will find out everything in right moment :) 

27/06/15

The day has come- I can officially say I have holidays. It was such a rough year. New school, new people, time to decide what you want to do in your life, just overwhelming. But now I have two whole months to do what I want and don't give a fuck (pardon the expression,
I had to)

Yesterday was really good. Me and my friends went to a party which was on the beach. We spent our time dancing, drinking, meeting new people and just having fun. It's nice to meet with people who you haven't seen for a long time and have a little chat. But now I'm thinking that maybe I had too much fun... My legs are hurting so much and I'm just like dead person, yey!

It's fair in my town today, but when I went out I was just sitting by the lake with my friend and we basically didn't care about anything what was happening there ;_; So i spent my day mainly reading a book and being no-life. What a great way to spend Saturday! 

Anyway, I'm very curious how my holidays will look like. I hope that I will spend this time the best as I can. Fingers crossed!

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE

I can't believe they are finally here! Tickets for Florence concert are in my hands right now, I can't even describe how excited I am. It was so hard to get them, but where there is a will there's a way! :)
Last year I was on Florence and The Machine concert and I think that it was the best concert I have ever been to. If anyone of you have an opportunity to go to one of their concerts, GO! Necessarily! I'm completely honest right now :) I can't even describe it. The only word that comes to my mind is MAGICAL. You'd have to be there to understand, because some of you probably think that I'm really strange... Ok, yes I am. But, come oon, understand me! When you see tons of people in wreath, with brocade and of course when you hear your favorite music and you have this ability to sing it with the artist... egh indescribable.
The only disadvantege is time of the concert... December, just great! Because everybody likes freezing and snow!  But, doesn't matter, I can handle it :)

Sooo here I come Florence! See you again soon xxx

Little summary, which I found on youtube, of the concert I went last year :)

23/06/15

It was a good day yesterday :) In the morning of course I went to school. But I hadn't got any power in my body to stay in polish lessons so i ran away with my mates. It's almost the end of the school, come ooon, nothing wrong would happen. Except that we met our teacher in little caffee... But he didn't say anything to us. Maybe he didn't see us? I don't know. Anyway, after school i went home and at 6pm i went out with my friends. We were sitting by the lake when suddenly it started to rain. And I mean hard, strong, massive rain, not just any drizzle. So we started looking for some place to hide. We ran to a little "house". It's basically place where are three places with benches, tables and roof. We sit there very often. We were just sitting and laughing and then i said that i have cards. GAME BEGAN. I want to laugh so much when i think about it, really. We played a game called makao. Normally people play it in 5 minutes, but it takes us 50 MINUTES and we didn't even finish it. I'm serious... We started to be very competitive and shouting at each other, of course for fun. I was laughing sooo much that literally my stomach started to ache. I think people on the other side of lake could hear us and we probably sound a little like pathology... but who cares #yolo right? hahah. It was 10pm when we said "f**k this game" and went home. Of course it was still raining so I walked at home looking like wet dog. I wouldn't be suprised if i were ill. So that was my day. It's funny how simple things can make us happy.
But today I don't know why I'm in really bad mood. It is raining all day and I'm sitting in my room, listening music and thinking. But sometimes we need days like this too, right?

Some good music for day like this :)