HAPPY PLACE

I think everyone has their own happy place. For me it's place where I can relax, think, consider some stuff and take rest of the people. It doesn't matter if it's your room, beach or bench under shopping center. It has to be your place, place where you like being. I have the pleasure of living in a small town with lakes, forests etc. so I have really big choice of places in nature. But I have one favourite. It's old beach by the lake but not many people go there because it's far from city center. I like sitting on the little bridge, staring at the trees and lake and just thinking. Especially when it's sunset and the sky is getting darker and darker. It's funny how many beautiful places we have at fingertips and we don't appreciate it. We are so accustomed to the view of our city that it doesn't impress us anymore. We really need to see better. But anyway...
My other "happy place" is a little village where I have my family. Unfortunately I have to spent 5 hours in the car to go there, so we don't see each other often... I think I like this place because I see how it makes other people happy. For example my father. I see how sad sometimes he is that he can't live there with his cousins, aunts and uncless. When we are there everyone is happy and that really makes me feel good. Especially I like to sit in a little bench outside the house where my great-gradmother used to sit and sang me songs when I was little. Agh, I hope that I'll go there this summer, fingers crossed.
Maybe it's strange but not only places with no people make me relax. I've always liked big towns that never sleeps, where you can see lot of people in any time of the day. Maybe it's because I live in this small town and sometimes in the center there is NOBODY and living in a big place become one of my dreams. I will never forget when I was in London... I sat at the Trafalgar Square in the evening and I was just looking at people. Looking how they were dressed, what style they had, if they were happy or not, what were they doing. I know it's a little psycho... But I don't know why it really makes me relaxed. Maybe because then I don't think about me?
It's sad that most of places which makes me happy are so far away from my home. But I hope that I will have a chance to go there again :)

And what about you? Do you have any "happy places"?

Trafalgar Square - unfortunately not my photo

BEING LOST

In my previous post I mentioned how rough my school year was, so I decided to write about something I was and I am still dealing with. It's feeling lost. When you're going to high school you should know what you want to do in the future, focus on lessons that will be useful to get into college and basically just know what you are doing there... I'm this kind of person who doesn't know what the hell she is going to do in the future. In addition, I think that everything is just... wrong? I feel like I'm not in the right place. And I mean school, town and EVERYTHING. I don't even know what I'm doing with my life right now. I'm so jealous of people who have real passion and know what they want to do. But sometimes I like to sit in my room and think about where I will end and what I will do. I know that 17 year old girl shouldn't care about stuff like this, but not knowing what future is going to bring and where I will end is just frightening. Why am I focus so much on it? From book "Looking for Alaska" I have remembered this quote:

Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. (...) You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.

It has stuck in my head for a long time. I thought it related to me in 100%. I tried to live in the present, catch every little moment of a day, but when I just had time to myself I was sitting and thinking about future. And now I'm thinking that maybe it has to be like that? I'm type of spontaneous person and I like to console myself that not knowing is good. I don't know where I will be next year, with who etc. And as I mentioned earlier it's frightening, but in some way it is exctiting too. So now I'm trying to don't think about it, live in the moment and enjoy it. Hope it will work. I will find out everything in right moment :) 

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE

I can't believe they are finally here! Tickets for Florence concert are in my hands right now, I can't even describe how excited I am. It was so hard to get them, but where there is a will there's a way! :)
Last year I was on Florence and The Machine concert and I think that it was the best concert I have ever been to. If anyone of you have an opportunity to go to one of their concerts, GO! Necessarily! I'm completely honest right now :) I can't even describe it. The only word that comes to my mind is MAGICAL. You'd have to be there to understand, because some of you probably think that I'm really strange... Ok, yes I am. But, come oon, understand me! When you see tons of people in wreath, with brocade and of course when you hear your favorite music and you have this ability to sing it with the artist... egh indescribable.
The only disadvantege is time of the concert... December, just great! Because everybody likes freezing and snow!  But, doesn't matter, I can handle it :)

Sooo here I come Florence! See you again soon xxx

Little summary, which I found on youtube, of the concert I went last year :)