BEING LOST

In my previous post I mentioned how rough my school year was, so I decided to write about something I was and I am still dealing with. It's feeling lost. When you're going to high school you should know what you want to do in the future, focus on lessons that will be useful to get into college and basically just know what you are doing there... I'm this kind of person who doesn't know what the hell she is going to do in the future. In addition, I think that everything is just... wrong? I feel like I'm not in the right place. And I mean school, town and EVERYTHING. I don't even know what I'm doing with my life right now. I'm so jealous of people who have real passion and know what they want to do. But sometimes I like to sit in my room and think about where I will end and what I will do. I know that 17 year old girl shouldn't care about stuff like this, but not knowing what future is going to bring and where I will end is just frightening. Why am I focus so much on it? From book "Looking for Alaska" I have remembered this quote:

Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. (...) You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.

It has stuck in my head for a long time. I thought it related to me in 100%. I tried to live in the present, catch every little moment of a day, but when I just had time to myself I was sitting and thinking about future. And now I'm thinking that maybe it has to be like that? I'm type of spontaneous person and I like to console myself that not knowing is good. I don't know where I will be next year, with who etc. And as I mentioned earlier it's frightening, but in some way it is exctiting too. So now I'm trying to don't think about it, live in the moment and enjoy it. Hope it will work. I will find out everything in right moment :) 

27/06/15

The day has come- I can officially say I have holidays. It was such a rough year. New school, new people, time to decide what you want to do in your life, just overwhelming. But now I have two whole months to do what I want and don't give a fuck (pardon the expression,
I had to)

Yesterday was really good. Me and my friends went to a party which was on the beach. We spent our time dancing, drinking, meeting new people and just having fun. It's nice to meet with people who you haven't seen for a long time and have a little chat. But now I'm thinking that maybe I had too much fun... My legs are hurting so much and I'm just like dead person, yey!

It's fair in my town today, but when I went out I was just sitting by the lake with my friend and we basically didn't care about anything what was happening there ;_; So i spent my day mainly reading a book and being no-life. What a great way to spend Saturday! 

Anyway, I'm very curious how my holidays will look like. I hope that I will spend this time the best as I can. Fingers crossed!

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE

I can't believe they are finally here! Tickets for Florence concert are in my hands right now, I can't even describe how excited I am. It was so hard to get them, but where there is a will there's a way! :)
Last year I was on Florence and The Machine concert and I think that it was the best concert I have ever been to. If anyone of you have an opportunity to go to one of their concerts, GO! Necessarily! I'm completely honest right now :) I can't even describe it. The only word that comes to my mind is MAGICAL. You'd have to be there to understand, because some of you probably think that I'm really strange... Ok, yes I am. But, come oon, understand me! When you see tons of people in wreath, with brocade and of course when you hear your favorite music and you have this ability to sing it with the artist... egh indescribable.
The only disadvantege is time of the concert... December, just great! Because everybody likes freezing and snow!  But, doesn't matter, I can handle it :)

Sooo here I come Florence! See you again soon xxx

Little summary, which I found on youtube, of the concert I went last year :)

23/06/15

It was a good day yesterday :) In the morning of course I went to school. But I hadn't got any power in my body to stay in polish lessons so i ran away with my mates. It's almost the end of the school, come ooon, nothing wrong would happen. Except that we met our teacher in little caffee... But he didn't say anything to us. Maybe he didn't see us? I don't know. Anyway, after school i went home and at 6pm i went out with my friends. We were sitting by the lake when suddenly it started to rain. And I mean hard, strong, massive rain, not just any drizzle. So we started looking for some place to hide. We ran to a little "house". It's basically place where are three places with benches, tables and roof. We sit there very often. We were just sitting and laughing and then i said that i have cards. GAME BEGAN. I want to laugh so much when i think about it, really. We played a game called makao. Normally people play it in 5 minutes, but it takes us 50 MINUTES and we didn't even finish it. I'm serious... We started to be very competitive and shouting at each other, of course for fun. I was laughing sooo much that literally my stomach started to ache. I think people on the other side of lake could hear us and we probably sound a little like pathology... but who cares #yolo right? hahah. It was 10pm when we said "f**k this game" and went home. Of course it was still raining so I walked at home looking like wet dog. I wouldn't be suprised if i were ill. So that was my day. It's funny how simple things can make us happy.
But today I don't know why I'm in really bad mood. It is raining all day and I'm sitting in my room, listening music and thinking. But sometimes we need days like this too, right?

Some good music for day like this :) 

21/06/15

Only one week and holidays will finally be here. I don't know how I survived this school year, but here I am! Happier than ever. This is my firt post, so you (if anyone is there...) need some explanation. Basically, I am this kind of person who likes memories. I like to look at the past and see what amazing things I've done. That's exactly why I am here. I think this is good time for thing like this, especially when some cool things are going to happen. So I want to have it write down and maybe share it with you, if you are interested:) One more important thing- sorry about my English, I will try my best to write better. I think that is all I wanted to say, so... ENJOY.